Always Noticed

A few months back (now a few years back), I spent some time chatting with the wonderful pastor from my (then) part-time church. He pointed out that when I am in the church, I am noticed. The light bulb went on. Yes, in almost every situation, in almost room or venue I walk into, I am noticed. This pleases me.

I have to be honest with myself, there aren’t many out in public like me. I am tall (for a woman), I don’t shrink from being seen, I speak in my normal voice, I make no apologies for who I am. My style and manner of dress makes me stand out (in a good way). I am also generally lit up with a big smile. That smile, buried for years and years under the worst porn mustache (no longer even possible) you can imagine, is a gift. Most people do not have the opportunity to meet and/or know someone like myself. Any hesitancy is immediately diffused with that smile. Somehow I put others at ease and then they realize, I am simply a nice person. Unique, sure. Different, yes. Worth talking to, absolutely!

Knowing all of this has made a difference. It has amped up my level of confidence. I literally feel no different walking into somewhere in a dress or as myself. Actually, I feel even better in that dress because I am not a JAG (“just a guy”) in that dress. Otherwise, I am absolutely that JAG. A JAG few notice. A nice person, but nothing special. I take this gift seriously and make sure that those that see me are treated with warmth and respect. I gladly answer questions about myself.

So I now enter my sixth (now eighth) year being out and about as Kandi. Things have evolved, I have changed. I look at pictures and see my improved make up skills, my improved ability to assemble an outfit. I will continue look to make my life fuller and continue to help others, because I am indeed, noticed.

5 thoughts on “Always Noticed”

  1. KANDI,

    YES WE REVOLVE OVER TIME AND I SUSPECT WITH MOST OF US BECOME MORE RELAXED BUT POISED IN OUR FEMALE PERSONNA> YOU CERTAINLY HAVE AND I KNOW I HAVE ALSO BUT TO A LESSER DEGREE>>>> YOU ARE PAST HS A BA MASTERS ON WELL ON OUR WAY TO DOCTORATE.

    CONGRATULATION MARIE

  2. Yes the more and more I go out the less stressed I am about it, because I’m just being me and it’s ok.
    That is what I hope for all girls out there like myself and others that go out is it can be done.
    Thanks for all you do Kandi

  3. Kandi,
    They say a woman’s smile can light up a room . I’m sure it’s true , in a way it’s selling ourselves , are we more approachable , do people want to interact with us ? Of course they do it’s human nature . To go one stage further a man who often smiles is sometimes misunderstood or possibly misread the same does not apply to women because it can make a woman more approachable , more amenable , someone you may wish to spend some time with . I guess I’m lucky I have an easy , unforced smile but that also reflects how happy I am inside now . I’m sure that’s why you have such a great smile your inner self is happy .

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